Realizations…
It comes in waves. The pain of it all. Sometimes I feel almost normal, whatever that is. I keep blogging despite what Susan says. Maybe it’s a bit of an addiction.
I kept listening to Stand in the Rain while I was standing out in the cold waiting for Patty to pick me up for church. And it made me feel as if I could stand through all this. That I could lean into some inner strength or more acurately I can lean into the strength of the Source, and what can be better than that… I mean His strength is infinite. I just keep talling myself that He really does care and that He is listening.
Well, today is Christmas. And it’s probably the hardest Christmas thus far in my short life. But Jenn letting me go is forcing me to stand on my own two feet, to weather the storm. I’ll be ok.
~ by wishfulthinking19 on December 25, 2008.
Posted in God, goodbye, thanks, twisted metal
I promise you: He is always listening. And He doesn’t disappoint.
I know I do not know all the many things that could be going on in your life right now, nor do I ask you to tell me any of them because it is none of my business; but you must remember that after everything, in everything, He always wins. The ending to the story has already been told, we’re just waiting for it to unfold.
I am truly, honestly sorry that your Christmas has not gone as merry as some might have wished on you. I pray that the rest of it is overflowing with strength and faith; you seem like a strong person, but I know from experience that the strongest can be the easiest to break down and let their emotions get the best of them.
The “Jenn” in your life is right; the storm will pass, you will be just fine. :]