Another one of these days…
I think I might have an anxiety problem. Gosh, I pretty much hate this. I am always having some problem. I don’t want to be sucked into the drama; i am trying this new thing where i just lean on God and trust Him to provide for me, care about me, love me. And I like myself better when i surrender and when I trust. And this anxiety is overwhelming; over things I cannot and never will be able to control. I hate this. I want to cry and scream.
Sometimes people are so completely selfish and self-absorbed. They wallow in their own pain and pretend like what they do doesn’t hurt anyone else. I’ve been there. i’ve been that person. And it’s sobering to realize how detrimental behaving that way can be.
And now I’m sitting here obsessed with these problems when I need to be completing my psych homework. I guess i wish that people could realize that the world does not revolve around them, that other people have issues and problems and life in general that have nothing to do with them.
gr.. i need this anxious heart to melt away…
